2004-11-19 - 10:31 p.m.

I was in an area of utmost, ideal Paradise. Garden of Eden. It was a mixture of Wilhemina Park, here in Utrecht, and my favourite nature scenes from my childhood visitations of Iowa. It was that perfect moment of sunset - a tapestry of countless colours, tinged with fuschias, pinks, reds, oranges - all these hues mingling and bleeding into each other, blanketing and embracing all the trees and grasses in utmost blessedness and love. There were gigantic trees, towering to heaven, arranged in a circular hyptonic pattern--

A voice welled up in me, an alien Voice - "This is Infinity."

At that utterance, I became lucid, realizing I was dreaming.... I instantly flew. Light as a feather! Soaring flying between the trees, learning to balance on the limbs as an infant learns to balance on feet... awkwardly but gaining confidence... losing my equilibrium at first but then learning to fly with more agility. A feeling of utmost Freedom, Lucidity, Weightlessness...... blending into the air..... blurring of inside outside up and dow n---

My physical body, the one having the dream rather than the lucid dream-body traveling about, was plummeted by waves and waves and waves of expanding bliss. Oh what fountains of multicoloured bliss oozing throughout me! I sensed that body peaking thru the dream--

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What is it that starts to rise?
Can you hear me now?

I continued flying, flying, flying. Intuitively I knew that indeed 'THIS IS INFINITY,' this is a True Self, this is What Is. This is always inside me, this knowledge of the Boundless... Its so intimate, so familiar, like a striking visual from childhood. Natural. Latent possibilities - endless.

Eventually it was Julia and I, here in Holland. We decided to meet up to see Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. We goofed on when to meet - I went to the theater to find her, waiting, waiting, waiting, no luck. No phones, no way to get a hold of each other. I wandered about

Eventually I encountered her wandering, that seraphic countenance sparkling and blindingly radiant - as always dazzling mine eyes --

And beneath the clouds we were in love.