2005-05-02 - 5:52 p.m.

You aremy You are my!!!

So the long collegiate career - at least undergraduate - ends as of June 2005. TIME FLIES especially when you yourself are flying...

I need to recommence with dream journaling. I have felt profound prophetic dreams - 3 days in a row recently --------------------------------- in true synchronous form, a class of mine just now began discussing sleep and dreams -- if we could consider dreaming a distinct state of consciousness... What exactly IS dreaming, just fleeting fantasies, re-played mental contents??? I myself take it to be prophecy - if one can pay close, the closest of attention.

Instructions to become lucid is to try to look at your own hands during the dream. Just summon your hands to you and look at them - a break of conscious volition. I was training myself to do this last night, but was unable to get much REM sleep - restlessness and spinning about, because of bizarre dreams of Samurai every which way, on edge because of having to protect this plot of land I was stationed at......... Would you be able to sleep if you were assigned to protect? And finally when drifting off I heard vomiting from downstairs - or at least sounded like vomiting, could have been an extremely long viscous cough, the sound when someone is about to exhale something monstrous from the Lungs... at any rate that JARRED me from sleep, nervous system stimulated and thinking what was that...

Some beauteous Spanish-style flamenco guitar being played --- morphs into metal music. The beauty of musical forms dissolving and combining...

'For there is no pain greater than mine,' so sayest the singer on this piece

Been listening to Wagner nonstop, now want to expand musical horizons- where to next, where doth the Sun shine and point me?????

JH --- oh ye lovely one that JH adores!